It’s been a few weeks now that I’ve been meaning to get back to Want & Wonder. I kept the intentions of drafting up some posts but life stuff kept popping up. Not necessarily bad life things… plenty of great things actually, just things that have become very demanding of time, not to mention spending 8-10 hours a day staring at a computer screen five days a week, the last thing I’ve been itching to do at the end of my days has been to crack open my laptop but I promise things are about to change and I’ll be on here much more to share my life adventures and or lack-thereof if adult life deems it so. 😉
The next few posts will probably be coverage of things that have happened during the past few months I’ve been away. Travels, personal experiences and life choices/changes, and maybe I’ll throw in a recipe or two in the mix.
After having done a lot of self-reflection on my path and where it’s taken me thus far, I’ve been doing my best to take on different types of projects and do more for myself. With a focus on constantly finding ways to better myself (for me), maintaining mental peace and happiness, living a healthy, meaningful lifestyle, surrounding myself with those with good heads on their shoulders, with good intentions and doing my best to keep a safe distance from unnecessary and self-inflicted chaos.
Am I happy? If no, then why not, and if yes, could I be happier? Evaluating my career, I know I have worked so very hard to get to where I am, I have a huge passion for what I do, I know I was meant for this but am I where I want to be? Thinking about my living situation. I love the city I live in, the area I’m in is filled with wonderful things, the home I live in, I’ve worked hard with B to make our personal spaces a good representation of our combined style aesthetic… but is this geographically where I or we want to be, when the world is so huge and a wonderful life could be lived from anywhere else. Am I working up towards goals that are within my reach or am I just fooling myself into believing one thing and seeing another. All sorts of things have been floating around and in no way have I felt that it was a negative thing that I was sitting around contemplating all the why’s and what-if’s. I think its healthy, honestly. Its a good way of evaluating where you are and what you need to stop doing and the things you need to start doing to get you back on course and moving towards where you want to be. I’m just looking at my little hiatus as exactly that 🙂
Thankfully, I’ve got a solid handful of friends that I talk to every day and they keep me from losing myself to my anxieties and keep me afloat and from sinking into a pit of depression, like I have in the past on my own. My parents and I have always had a great relationship, and I’m lucky enough to call them my best friends and always feel safe and comfortable to share all of my hopes, goals, disappointments and every other emotion I can and have been known to express and always gain back constructive words that I can use to get me back on track. And I have B. Honestly, a lot of things in my life have changed not because of but thanks to him being part of it (yes there’s a difference). He’s never once told me what and what not to do and has always respected me in every sense of the word. I’ve never had someone who stressed that my independence was one of his favourite traits about me and constantly assures me that there isn’t any challenge or obstacle I can’t overcome, even when I feel at my lowest and that hurdle looks beyond my reach. Lastly, Presley… my little rock. I’m pretty sure my pug is my sun, and I just float around him in his gravitational pull… and I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Anywho, enough of the sappy “lemme tell you about how I haven’t been missing in action and I’ve actually just been ‘thinking’ the whole time”. I’m really looking forward to sharing my latest adventures in travel, experiences with friends and family, collaborating on fun and amazing projects, and simply, just living life 🙂
xoxo
nice moment….
After reading this, I feel like you was in the same situation that I’ve been in. I know the feelin very well. I’m hoping that all is going well with you and that you can come back to the blog one day. I would love to read more from ya.
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wow, I really liked this post! I often question things in a similar fashion, like why I’m doing what I’m doing, and if things were different, how would it be… My situation, my life, family and love… I love your style of writing! Definitely following! 🙂 Thank you also for retweeting my tweets! I’ve noticed you, lol! Thnx
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I hope you are fine. I love the way you have written this beautifully.